have you ever?

Have you ever felt so alone when youre already been surrounded by people, close ones?
have you ever been in a situation where you just feel like youre lonely and lost?
like youre in the middle of a bone dry desert with nothing and nothing at all except maybe a ball of hay/tumble weed.

cause let me tell you, it's where I am now.
I know I said that I'll never let negativity take the lead.
It clearly seems like it's taking me over.
I'm trying my best to look at the bright side.
I believe im feeling like this because it wants me to realize something
I believe I'll learn something out of this
I believe there's a reason why are these thoughts haunting me
I will surely get through this with time

Life is never stagnant
its never the same phase
never easy at all times
everyday is a new day to experience
to live on
to conquer

I am happy yet sad. I dont exactly know what I'm feeling.
sometimes I just feel like I need something more than a friend
I need a company
I want someone to share lives with
I want to grow with a somebody
I really want to meet the other whole
who's meant for me and only me
No, im not desperate for a guy
I just want everything to fall in place already
I want to settle in with life
and yeah
I know when the perfect time comes,
it'll happen
and I really hope the time is soon
It's about time, to learn more about myself
while that special someone is finding me,
I want to know every bits of myself,
I want to love myself more than anybody else
and when my other whole comes into my life,
I will know in & out about myself.
what i like & dislike
how i want to be treated
how i would be so in awe
I want to be prepared to be love
I f  y o u  d o n ' t  l o v e  y o u r s e l f , w h o  w i l l  ?
self acceptance is really really important
I always remind myself,
if I dont love myself, accept myself for who I am
who will dare love me?
It's time to open my door
Im almost ready to let people in
and not shut people out
I need more light in my life
I need more than just what I have
I need to stop thinking about my past
and live and make the most out of it
I cant be thinking that every guy is the same
anymore
it's time to walk by faith
close my eyes
and walk slowly and steadily
through hills and valleys
through many many paths
and see who will join me!